How is training for Boston going? Glad you asked.
In a nutshell: not well.
The stress is creeping in and with it comes self doubt: with all that I am responsible for as a first-year teacher, am I actually being realistic when I set my sights on running 3:05 or better in my next marathon? I nearly killed myself running a 3:09:45 in 2010, and I didn't have a fulltime job then. I find myself constantly exhausted, and despite that exhaustion, I still find it hard to fall asleep some nights because I just can't turn my brain off.
Regarding the exhaustion, I sometimes tell myself that I need to listen to my body and ease back on the training if I'm so exhausted. Other days, though, I wonder if that isn't the point of training - to get used to running through exhaustion, because isn't that what the last 6 miles of the marathon are all about? In the end, EVERY run is a mental battle, often started long before I actually make it out the door, and I don't always win.
Ultimately all I can do is keep plugging along, giving it the best I can, and just try not to be disappointed if it takes me a few attempts to make it again. Some people, afterall, spend a lifetime chasing Boston. I just hope I'm not one of them.
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